Confusing

Hey guys, I've been wanting to address a subject for awhile now. Lately, I have been hesitant to express myself because in a way I didn't want to believe it myself. Well, since as long as I could remember I've "liked" girls. I would get crushes just like all the other boys but I guess I was just never as interested in them as some of my peers. Recently however I've been wondering if I just had an interest in females because society implanted that into my brain when I was young. You know, like its the social norm or some shit? My parents always tried to get me to do manly things because I liked to play with my sister's barbies and occasionally wanted to wear a dress. Anyway, this has all left me pretty confused and I'm not entirely sure as to why I'm revealing this, but I've had too much on my chest recently and I need to unload some steam. I think I am attracted to a teammate. Sure, I have slept around with the cheerleaders. I don't have trouble getting with the ladies but it just never felt right. What it comes down to is, what do you guys think, should I keep questioning my feelings and exploring or is it better to avoid the hassle and the shame and bury these ideas deep down? I really need advice. I don't even know if I like boys, maybe I'm bisexual. I just don't know. Anyway, I know this article has been confusing but its just like my heart right now, so please understand. Thank you Internet Realm, without you I would be dead. <3

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