Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Love the One your With

It is so hard to find someone right. You know, smart, beautiful, independent and intelligent. These days it really seems the four can no longer co-exist. I'm not very popular at school but I still know a lot of people, and unfortunately I only know 1 person in the entire world who through the troubles of life has managed to retain these qualities and blossom into the most wonderful person.
To simply try and describe this girl in words would be a impossible feat as their are no words in the English language that can capture how beautiful and amazing she is. She is simply breath taking. I've know her a while and always thought highly of her and saw how good we would be for each other. The perfect match is the only way I could describe us, just perfect.
She had been away off at college in the most recent year but finally returned for the summer. I simply could not wait to see her. And when I did, it all came back. All my old emotions came back but flowed with a intensity I had never experienced before. I couldn't believe how fast I was falling in love.

Everyday we hung out was simply the best day of my life. Every time we spoke it was our best conversation. Our relationship was growing so strong so fast like a wild fire spreading through a dry field. I simply knew this girl was the one for me.

One night we were down by the creek near the old wind mill by the Laidlaw Estate. It was such a beautiful night. I knew this was the time for me to finally tell her how I felt, to release the flood gate of emotion and let it all out. As we sat there I ran through what I wanted to say in my head. Just as I was sure about what to say, I opened my mouth to speak but she opened hers first. I stopped to listen.

She told me how she was leaving. Leaving for the summer to go far away where I would never see her. And just like that it was over. I had lost my true love forever. This summer was my moment, my time to sweep her off her feet. But now shes gone. Im here and she's there. And she still doesn't know how I feel. What should I do, im not sure. I think I am just meant to be alone forever.

Maybe some of us are.

-xoxo

Thursday, May 15, 2008

I cry everynight

Seriously omg, I am so sad right now you have no idea. It is as if the world has turned off all its light and taken away all its love. I just finished up a msn conversation with the love of my life. We meet in kindergarden and grew up together. She was perfect in everyway. We would have been perfect in everyway. In grade 5 i moved away, doomed to the other edge of the world, torn apart from each other forever. Untill 7 years later, I would have to option of retuning to my hometown for 4 months, to get a summer job there. We had talked for months and months as much as we could, it felt as though I never left her, as if she had never left me, soul mates forever <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 It was going to be the best summer of my life. I was ready to book my plane ticket and tell her the news that I was coming back when word had reached me she was dating another guy. My heart sunk through my body like a ton of bricks would have fallen from a skyscraper. I couldnt believe she would do this to me. I was so upset I took the money I had saved up for my plane ticket and spent it on drugs and cheap sex. I dont know if I will ever be able to get over her so Im asking you internet. PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!!! IM SO SAD AND MISS HER SO MUCH!!!